I’ve done it. I let go of the familiar and comfortable.
After six years of freelance work, I decided to focus on my current full-time job so that I can excel in it more. Not to say that I am no longer open for occasional weekend projects, but those part time online rakets that require me to submit a steady stream of outputs had to go at this phase of my life. What remains is this blog-transitioning-into-portfolio and a tech blog I have a solid commitment of contributing to.
I have been intuiting the past few days that this letting go is inevitable. One would think that after my clamoring for the perfect full-time job for the past 5 years of my life, I will find it easy to let go of no work, no pay arena. (Not to mention saying goodbye to the extra cash that these rakets do pull in.)
For the past two weeks, I have conflicting desires: that of excelling in whatever it is I am committed to doing now and earning more to be an effective breadwinner. Whether it’s a bad or good thing, I honor the former and just patiently hold out for the latter without biting off more than I can chew in terms of work load. I used to multi-task so well, but as I got older, I wanted to just focus on one thing and be the best that I can be in that one thing. Luckily, I’ve found that one thing worth waiting out and working my ass out for. Oh, make that two (this blog comes in as second)…
I started learning about the power of focusing when I stopped doing everything for the board exam review. It did work. And it just gets more and more cemented day by day. This is my time to focus on one task. Money will have to come later.
Have a blessed day. Today is Immaculate Conception day. All the more strengthened is my resolution to excel in this responsibility given to me.