For the last three years I think I took the “elevator” for numerous things. This year, I changed my strategy with a ground-up approach. It’s zero shortcut year and it’s going to be the best year of my life. 🙂 My new CBTL #brew2015 planner is jampacked with the stairway approach but I think that it’s better in the long-term. There is a reason why seasons have its own time and place in the world. I have learned to respect the natural order of progression.
Progress is not something that I can grasp in a snap. There is an incremental change that contributes to lasting and more important consequences in the future. I have learned to respect my limitations. I only have 24 hours a day, and 8 of it is spent on sleep or rest. I’ll be lucky if I reach the age of 90 and still be doing what I am doing, which is roughly 60 years from today.
Technically, I now only have 16 hours in a day, a substantial amount of which is spent on my duties or miscellaneous tasks.
I need to just learn how to say no and how to relinquish things that I cannot control. I have learned to “miss out” on things if it means that it frees me from the mental burden of having to keep up.
Control is actually an illusion. There is no such thing as control. We just try to float and make the most of the chaotic world that we live in. People who think they are in control will find themselves being set up for pain and disappointment. You can only organize yourself up to a certain extent but you cannot expect all the stars to align in your way all the time.
For the past few years, I was given options to go through shortcuts and I took them because I know how to take risks, because I did not know any better, and because I thought that this is the age for taking them. In hindsight, I realized that the risks paid off in a good way; it gave me a good bird’s eye view of the landscape that I am in. And now I walk with a more enlightened footing.
But it did not help me in a sense that I missed out on learning experiences because I had to accelerate everything for the shortcuts I took. I did not get to enjoy the learning because I was too focused on the delivering.
The pace was too fast and I found myself filling gaps here and there. I realized that I still need to train myself further in optimizing my resources without killing myself. So I started from scratch this year and tried something new.
It was a RADICAL departure. The most important thing is that I am actually at peace with my decision. Some other people think it’s a ridiculous move. I was insulted last December by a friend because she says I am stupid.
But you know what? I think I made the right choice because I now possess a pervading sense of peace that I did not have in the previous years. I do not exist to satisfy people; I exist to do my best in what I was made for. Not everyone who climbs in the fast pace can say that.
Ironically, my dreams are actually more within reach now that I decided to step back and take the stairway. The stairway is a difficult climb but it’s worth it. And when I do reach the summit of the climb, I will really take my time to savor the journey and the destination.