Marked with Ash on a Wednesday

“When I look in your eyes, I can see a million possibilities…”

-Come a Little Bit Closer, Brandy

I woke up at 4am today to attend the 6am Mass in San Roque Cathedral. It was a high Mass since the celebrant was Bishop Iniguez. I preferred to attend here than wait for the 4:30pm Mass here in the office because I wanted to thank Him first above all things.

Since I was trying my best to concentrate on my pre-work activity, I was unable to take pictures of my now-smudged forehead. It did look something like this before some of the ash got accidentally transferred to my index finger when I fixed my hair.

This marks the start of Lent, so I need to make extra efforts to fulfill my personal resolutions. I checked my 43things account to see which goals are aligned with the Lenten season. This is Day 1 of the extra Herculean efforts to overcome some things within myself. I believe that it can be done if I do not let go of the supernatural dimension working with me in the midst of things.

The Mass this morning was long but I did not mind because I only had to put up with so little compared to what I was given. Waking up was so easy this morning because I am overflowing with gratitude for the good things that happened to me, things that He allowed me to experience at this precise time of my life. I did not deserve any of the good things, but they keep coming anyway. It will be really ungrateful and horrible of me not to participate in little acts of self-denial if only to consider the things I have been given and the evil things I have been spared of.

These days, some experiences seem to help make me go full circle. Meaning to say, I was able to understand why certain things had to happen and what it had made out of me. And that’s the next best thing to having a perfectly balanced life: finally being able to come to terms with the hard stuff. It gives me an idea of where I am and what I want out of life at this point.

I don’t mean to say that I know everything and have everything planned to a T now. It was more like being able to glean and maximize the past to fuel my future. Nothing much to say, but there is so much to be done after this post.

One solid hope for the best. Some sustained gratitude. A million possibilities. 🙂