The blog is almost three years old on a dot com, and I have posts from as far back as 2004 consolidated from old blogs of my youth.
But honestly, I am reaching a certain decision that I am still 80% ambivalent about. I am thinking of saying goodbye to Helena, this personal blog, permanently so that I can make way for something else, whatever that something is in the offline world.
This is one of the last things I have online, given that I already extinguished my Facebook and Twitter accounts, social media presences which used to be bustling with life and action.
I just think that if ever I am going to write again, it should no longer involve using my real name so that people can just fully evaluate the quality of what I write apart from who I am as a person. So that I can be free to really write what’s on my mind, to write in a way that does not have any unnecessary societal pressures to conform. Because much of what I write here is very much hindered by the knowledge that people know who I am when I write it. I find it most ironic that my very own self gets in the way of the things which I want to convey, in the way I want to shape my manner of writing. But that’s what’s happening lately.
Anyway, I’m keeping this up for now. I don’t really know what to do yet. 🙂 But I’m probably saving word file after word file of my old blog posts before I shut it down and give a permanent downloadable link for a complete digest of my board exam tips. That I promise. 🙂