I was told that at my present age, I have all the resources and energy but zero time to do the things that I want. Supposedly, someone younger would have the time and energy but with zero resources to implement. And finally, the old ones will have the time and resources to enjoy life but zero energy to carry them out.
I experienced being a financially challenged student and it was quite difficult. But I had all the time to do things and it invited me to just be resourceful. Now that I am a twenty something young professional who works fulltime, I painfully acknowledge that I was able to move more freely with my paycheck but I cannot really maximize my entertainment given time constraints.
And I realized that, at any stage of one’s life, there will be a lack. It will never be enough. Worse, we do not know how much more time left on earth that we have got at this point. Each moment spent hurting, in anguish, in anger, in insignificant or mediocre activities, or in sheer meaninglessness is time wasted. And time is something we cannot remake or rewind. Once gone, they are gone forever and cannot be repeated. The only valid direction is forward.
So yes, I write this as a personal contract to myself. I decide to really live life regardless of how unfair or disappointing some situations can get. I decide to fight the ironies of life. I make time to use my resources as I please by staying up just a tad bit later in the evenings after work to recharge myself with activities that I genuinely love.
An interesting realization I discovered is that when a person REALLY wants something, one can reach or achieve it by hook or by crook. People just prefer to make excuses but there are few impossibilities that will really hamper one’s desires. If something is embedded in one’s psyche, it will manifest itself wherever that person is placed.
Armed with that insight, I make myself conscious of how I spend each waking and sleeping moment. Time is still hard to manage because it is so limited. But I find ways.
Opposing the ironies of life is hard. It may seem to be like chasing pavements. But it’s really not.
The fight is necessary for the whole shebang of life to unfold in its fullness. I only have NOW, I gotta make it count. And I got to get things DONE instead of spending too much time creating lists of what I want.
I have taken the first step. And each day is a first step.