At the risk of committing absolute blog abandonment, I succumbed to offline changes that completely transformed my life as of late. Do not get me wrong; I am most grateful for all these changes, but I did not really expect for all of them to come in simultaneously and immediately.
Exactly a week ago, I was an aspiring author plugging my weekdays away in fixing engineering manuscripts. I am still an aspiring author now, but my job description changed from editing books to synthesizing volumes of information that have some sort of national significance. So yes, change number one involves a transition to a new career. This, I had not planned.
Around a month ago, I was a self-absorbed woman consumed with the inspiration of literary pursuits and writing about other people’s love stories. Yesterday, I found myself joyfully making tuna sandwich for this awesome lover lawyer who is doing overtime work for his client. And learning how to cook now became a priority along with my desires to write about love stories and improve my existing skill. This, too, I had not planned.
And my minimalist self got challenged as my new work requires me, on top of using my brain a lot, to wear the best corporate outfits I can put together with matching makeup to boot. I strangely fear more for the fashion crisis than the intellectual demands. This, I definitely had not planned at all.
I sorely miss the bravado of my reckless youth, when I never worried and just went on with it. At the moment, I am taking deep breaths as I scan the new landscape that is my life and see how I can perform my bestest best to adjust to each change as gracefully and quickly as possible.
It may take awhile before I can adjust to the new love, new career, and new wardrobe that arrived all at the same time.
Hard as it is to get over the shock, I am mightily grateful to the good Lord who answered my silent prayers and gave so much more than what I expected.
In love, it is rare that one finds a partner who mutually loves in a balanced abundance. In a third world country such as the Philippines, employment is a luxury not easily given even to those who were sufficiently educated and matriculated (I had multiple offers and agonized over my choice, but I believe I already made the right one at this stage). And in a state where I overdid my vice for buying books over anything else, it is a good upgrade to finally learn how to make an effort to look presentable with new clothes and makeup– the initiation of every urban young professional woman.
So yes, hello new challenges, hello social skill muscles that await to be practiced, and hello changes. I embrace you now. And while I do not know where all this will take me next, I promise to make the most out of it.